I no longer believe in a god.
I’ve left the faith that was forced on me
since youngest childhood by my whole family.

I thought there was something wrong with me.
I thought I was the only person
to ever harbour doubts – how could I be so wrong?
There are so many of us – why don’t we belong?

This process was not short or easy.
I was consumed with deep guilt and fear.
Guilt that I could not believe in the one true faith.
Fearing that if I was wrong I’d have sealed my fate.
I know what’s written about those who don’t believe.
The lowest depths of hell for those who choose to leave.

Let me give you a little background,
I love all of my family so much.
I am incredibly close to both my parents.

But they will both call a spade a heart
if it prevents a need to depart
from the warmth and shelter their profound faith provides.
To this household’s religious rules I must abide.

Would dad smash his diamond with a club
if his diamond were ever to snub
the words of a dead prophet spoken long ago?
I’ve been too scared to gamble – I don’t want to know.
I know what’s written about those who choose to leave.
Don’t trust apostates – they only aim to deceive.

But I can’t stand to hide my true thoughts.
I can’t stand to remain quiet when
parents spread ancient views, help me escape these chains.
My mind keeps going in circles.

I must reveal that I’ve lost my faith.
Will they accept me for who I am?
The exact same person that I have always been.
Or will they tell me to burn in hell for leaving?

Being left without a family.
All by myself, completely alone.
Fearing life without their love – will I be disowned?
Desperately hoping that I will not be disowned.
I know what’s written about those who choose to leave.
Ignore your own children if they cease to believe.

I no longer believe in a god.
I’ve left the faith that you taught to me
since youngest childhood, am I still family?

Let me back in your hearts, you have never left mine.
Let me back in your hearts, you have never left mine.
Let me back in your hearts, you have never left mine.
Let me back in your hearts, before I close off mine.

Let me back in your hearts, you have never left mine.
Let me back in your hearts, you have never left mine.
Let me back in your hearts, you have never left mine.
Let me back in your hearts, before I close off mine.

Put your holy book down
and let me back in your lives.
Let me back in your hearts
before I close off mine.

Put your holy books down
and let us back in your lives.
Let us back in your hearts
before we close off ours.